Worry is such a funny thing. I think the only time we never really worry is from the ages of 0-10. Not even 10 maybe. By then, there are so many things to worry about. Worrying can be so stressful and exhausting. I mean just imagine what the parents must feel like everytime their son or daughter is out on their own or thy’re out driving alone for the first time. I’m 16 and I’ve already got so much to worry about. Mulitply that by about 1000 and you have how they feel everyday of their life since they had kids.
Its like in the movie I was watching “What a Girl Wants”. Yes, the one with Amanda Bynes. Her character left to go to England and find her father. Well she found her father and also a very cute British biker boy. She leaves and goes off with him and for the first time he experiences the worry that all father’s go through when their eldest daughter is out with a boy all day. I know my father goes through that. I mean he still tries to treat me like the little 5 year old who never left his side.
Currently my biggest worry is for my friends. I mean a lot of them are going through tough times in their life. One person specifically. I don’t know how to help them. I can’t think of anything. I honestly cannot. Usually I can come up with ideas but with this one I’m fresh out of ideas. Its really sad to because I want to help them so bad. They deserved to be helped. I don’t think they can handle this one on their own. Of course I am probably underestimating them but I’m just worried sick about them. For all my friends I am worried.
Well enough about worrying for now, I don’t know just felt like writing about it. The dreaded SAT’s have finally caught up with me and I am to take mine on October 14. Is it really that time already? Am I at the point in life where I have to be thinking about colleges and this and that? Yes I am. Its gone by so quickly. I look back and I can see the years I spent as a child fly by me. Its really sad actually I don’t think I enjoyed my childhood as much as I should have. You’re only a child once after all. I stressed myself out way to much. I let so many things get to me. I was thinking about things most kids don’t think about. Its seems like as the years go on the less and less the children get to act like kids. I mean my sister, who’s in first grade, comes home and could probably have almost as much homework as I sometimes get. Its not like a lot for one subject but its a lot in a collective form. The demands on the kids these days are so much greater than that of when we were kids. As the demands grow on the little ones, they also grow on us to. Parents keep saying we’re only teenagers, how much stress can we have to deal with?
Let me share something with you parents out there, its a lot more than you think. High School isn’t what it was when you were in it. Sure you guys all had jobs, sports, volunteering. You didn’t have AP, Honors classes. Colleges weren’t looking for the all around student. The average GPA wasn’t 4.23 something or another. Now a days that’s what it is. Everyone is involved in anything and everything. Colleges aren’t as focused on grades but its more of how well did you balance your time in addition to keeping your grades up. Did you do any extra-curricular? The requirements for college have gone up so much. Its so much harder to get into these good schools. Plus, going to college in the 70s and 80s was when a Bachelor’s degree was pretty much what everyone had. Now Bachelor’s is like a minimum and could probably get you the smaller wage job. What is happening to the world?
Wow, that was a lot to get out. I honestly have no idea where this came from. Maybe its because I am getting really stressed and frustrated with a lot of the stuff I have for school. I have so many things going on I could probably swim in it. In all seriousness. My calendar until December is like full. I need time to kick back relax and rest my brain. Even over long weekends I can’t do that because I have some big project due. When did life get to be so complicated?
Well, for once I get to go to bed before midnight. First time in a few weeks now. I am going to cherish it with every fiber of my being. So long, auf wiedersein, bon soir, good night, farewell…………